I was not expecting so many people to read my dick-punch post. I don't expect people to read this blog in general, because it's a place to process and dump my thoughts. Given that, it was surprising to see so many comments about said post.
Folks be pissed; I understand. I said a lot of critical things about a highly respected member of the Tucson hip-hop scene.
I'm pretty sure I am "too sensitive" (as someone said) to be involved in the scene, but you know, it's not something I'm pursuing.
I feel the way I do, regardless of my naivety in this area. I would not appreciate experiencing what Xnoxie did. She may very well have taken it another (less vulnerable) way, and good for her. I'm pretty sure I would feel like my gender was being honed in on and attacked like it was a weak spot, and that doesn't sit right with me. I'd like to think that there's a lot more to who I am than what's between my legs.
When I met Grimey, I thought he seemed like a really decent person, and I'm sure he is in his day-to-day life, but some of the things he said as an emcee (even if that's the point of rap battles) make him sound like an asshole. Regardless of my not being involved in hip-hop and "not knowing what the fuck [I'm] talking about," I can say from experience that to an outsider, it looks looks shitty and harsh and dehumanizing, even if there's more to it below the surface.
How is someone on the outside supposed to know? Especially if it keeps them from wanting to get involved in the end because it just looks like putting yourself on a chopping block.
Even if there is more to the rap battles and the rappers have an understanding and respectful rapport, that doesn't get conveyed well to someone who isn't already involved.
I felt the need to articulate that, and I think I succeeded.
I have a feeling Grimey L does not care how I feel about him, and that his feelings are not hurt. He's a big boy and can take care of himself.
I'm just a college student with opinions, occasionally. I like to write about them, and sometimes I'm going to voice them on my personal blog.
The number of you who took my post so personally was very surprising.
I think you're giving this blog wayyy too much credit, especially the person who said I took things out of context, but thanked me for giving Grimey free press. Really?
Because really, who reads this blog? Nobody would have ever read it (except for a few close friends who check this occasionally) if someone involved in hip-hop hadn't found this, gotten angry, and passed it on. It's not like I posted it on Grimey's page and said "read this because I think you're an asshole." I didn't throw it in his face or bring it to his attention in any way.
I did not write it for a well-read publication or otherwise seek to mass-disseminate it. I am not trying to incite anything. I posted it on my personal blog to reflect on how I felt.
And if you think my opinion is naive and unfounded because I'm not involved in the scene, what do you care? It's pretty simple: don't read my blog.
Now I'm going to go back to keeping my personal blog, and keep expecting people not to give a shit.
* I want to reiterate that this post was an opinion piece, not a news article. Opinions have one point of view, that's what makes them opinions. If I were writing a full-fledged article, it would be bad form to have my opinion in it at all. If it were an article, it would reflect how Xnoxie and Grimey and other hip-hop folks feel and respond to the event, because that's how an article is supposed to be written. Don't confuse the two, as they are very fundamentally different.
My post was merely a representation of my opinion, so take it or leave it.
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